A couple days ago I woke up with no voice.
None. I cannot even whisper. The best we could guess was that the beautiful white tree that is in bloom caused it. Our landlady told me many are allergic to it. She sat me down and gave me cup of “mountain” tea and a spoonful of royal jelly from her own bees. She told me, go stay in this apartment and rest until you feel better.
I’ve been staying in my own space and sleeping about 17 hours a day. I cancelled my appointments and everyone was very gracious and kind about it. Yesterday I asked my group for prayers because I have 53 women I’ll be teaching on Monday and I’d really like to have my voice back.
At 4 a.m. this morning I received a message in the silence.
I was reminded of something that happened right after the new year. I was staying at my office one night and when I woke up my jaw was completely dislocated. Nothing happened. I didn’t get hit. My jaw was completely unhinged. I couldn’t talk or eat. After the initial panic I heard, we are unhinging you. You are stepping into more. After a few days of rest and silence I found a doctor who put my jaw back into place and I walked away a changed woman inside and out.
I heard something similar.
I am now ready to reach so many more. My voice and throat are being altered so I can communicate in ways I have not before. I’m stepping into my next season. Once again I am a changed women.
What I love about my lifestyle.
I think for the average American it’s very difficult for them to understand how simple and easy my life is. Traveling is in complete alignment with my soul. Being a mother is my joy. Being a wife is like having a best friend. And what I realized is self-care, self-love, and rest are incredibly difficult for most westerners to embrace because they have so much to prove and they have to be busy to be worthy.
This simply isn’t the case for me.
I’m not the mom who is fettered with guilt and who puts herself last. I’m not running on a Red Bull and Doritos. No, I live harmoniously with myself first. I feel the presence of my guides, my angels, and my ancestors. They are telling me, it’s time. I’m not simply after fame and fortune. I am ready to fulfill the contract I signed when I arrived. My power soul is ready to go and my body is renewing and expanding to support it. This is not an upper limit, this is my time to see there is NO limit.
What are you hearing in the silence?