That’s the name of the “condition” I’ve had for way too long! When I returned to the U.S. six years ago I had no plans of staying. Nope I was going to take a little time to get myself healthy again and be on the next plane to a country most Americans have never heard of. And if for some miraculous reason (like meeting the love of my life) I would stay I was never going to forget what I learned from traveling and living in some of the poorest countries in the world.
Live simply, so others can simply live.
Choose to see what’s easier to ignore.
Live from your heart.
You can make a difference.
Life is beautiful because we love.
Next thing you know I’m just another hamster on the wheel, or what’s commonly referred to as “the American dream”. Working, eating, sleeping and feeling dead inside. I want to say, this was no one’s fault but my own.
I got caught up in appearances, keeping up with the Jones (I discovered I don’t even like them!) and chasing the next dollar.
About a year ago I began to feel a strange feeling of discomfort like I was being pushed out of my comfy little nest. This confused me because my life looked the best it had in five years…I was happily married, had a growing business, with great friends in a city I loved! But inside I knew we had to go. We had to make a change but to what I didn’t know.
Little did I know that was the beginning of what I had been seeking, an awakening!
Derek and I now live in downtown San Diego (but don’t think for a second we’ll be here long). I mean right in the heart of downtown, in Gaslamp. In many ways I’m over it but I have to smile because I’ve been given a great opportunity to “see” again. To remember those things I learned overseas and not wait until I’m back there, but to start now, right where I’m at.
The best place for us to serve after all is right where we are.
There’s a Ralph’s grocery store a couple blocks away and yesterday it dawned on me that I pass at least half a handful of homeless people on my way and there’s a man in a wheelchair right at the entrance that I’ve never even talked to! I’m not proud of this. It’s not right.
Most importantly that goes against my heart.
As I approached Ralph’s I smiled at the man and asked him if there was something I could get for him inside. He sat there completely silent for several seconds. Not sure if he heard me I repeated myself. He just stared at me – I think in disbelief. After what felt like eternity he timidly requested an iced tea. I walked into the grocery store with tears in my eyes.
I saw him. He knew it and I knew it.
Everyday we walk next to people who need us to see them. They need a word of encouragement. They need a hug. They need a smile. They need an iced tea.
The question is, will we notice them and act out love?
Hungry for More, A. Monika
p.s. If there are typos, spelling or grammar mistakes in this post don’t worry about. Those are the kinds of things I’ve worried about for FAR too long. It’s time to just get it out and who cares if it’s not perfect, it’s from the heart!