A nice networking group met there weekly. After attending for the first time Derek asked me where the group met and I said Sue’s. He laughed and told me Junior Seau had played for the San Diego Chargers. Over the coming weeks and months I heard how much he contributed in the city and that he was a outgoing, happy man.
When I checked my email a few days ago I was stunned to read that he killed himself.
I haven’t been able to get Seau out of my mind. Apparently he hadn’t shared with anyone that he was struggling. No doubt he was surrounded by many people, but he was deeply connected to none of them.
Who do you have to go to when we are in pain, confused or feeling depressed?
Over the weekend I had a really tough day. I was disappointed about something that wasn’t going the way I wanted it to. I hid in the house all day Sunday and on Monday while I was running errands I ran into my best friend in Saranda. She asked me where I had been and why I didn’t contact her over the weekend. I could see the sincerity in her eyes. I was about to make up an excuse when I realized what I was doing.
I was going to put my best foot forward and smile, but inside I wanted to cry.
I told her I was sad. I didn’t call or email because I didn’t want to hang out while I was feeling that way. And then it dawned on me, why do we have friends if we can’t turn to them during the lows as well as the highs? Her eyes filled with tears and she hugged me. In that moment I got real and as a result, we were closer.
The next time you find yourself hiding your tears,
your fears and your faults,
open your heart and let someone in.
We weren’t meant to travel this journey alone.
We need each other.
Hungry for More, Monique Alvarez *Have you downloaded my free ebook, The Hungry Soul’s Manifesto? It’s all about remembering what’s important in life – creating purpose and passion, instead of just passing the time amassing stuff. p.s. If there are typos, spelling or grammar mistakes in this post don’t worry about. Those are the kinds of things I’ve worried about for FAR too long. It’s time to just get it out and who cares if it’s not perfect, it’s from the heart!