Today is the Taurus full moon and tomorrow is 11/11/11.
I knew I needed to find out more information on these key dates and I found that my Facebook friend Harriette Birnholz Knight did a radio show on this subject. I highly recommend you listen to the archive of it now. (Click on her name to listen.)
I sat here with chills and tears as I listened.
This truly is a transformational time and it was so important for me to hear her message and that’s why I’m passing it along…I know it’s important for everyone to hear it.
There was one particular line that really got me. I can’t remember exactly how she stated it but it was about how now is the time to shed the things that no longer serve us. To be more specific, now is the time to tell the Truth of who we are. My heart raced and I could feel a million tears barely being held by my big, brown eyes.
Who are we? Really?
I started telling the whole story of who I am back in May. In a casual conversation on the way to Balboa Park one day, Derek brought up the idea of us buying a loft when our lease is up in February. And without notice, I snapped. At the time I wasn’t sure what about that idea caused such a knee jerk reaction but I knew I had to get to the bottom of it. I had to start telling myself the truth.
The truth was I didn’t want to buy a loft. I didn’t want to be weighted down with one more thing. I didn’t want to live in San Diego anymore. I didn’t even want to live in the U.S. anymore. I didn’t want to go on as I had. I didn’t want “business as usual”.
I wanted to live overseas. I wanted to do humanitarian work. I wanted to sell everything I own. I wanted to be me again. But I was scared to tell my husband, my family, my clients, the world.
You know when people have known you in a certain way? Under a certain title?
I was worried that they would feel angry about me changing it up on them. The truth is they only knew a part of me, but all of me desired to be known. I’m so thankful for my husband and parents and in-laws. They now know the truth and have offered only love and support. Now for my clients and the world…
It’s only a matter of time that I fully walk out my truth. And while many changes are happening, I believe that you will understand. That you will see whether I am your wife, child or marketer, I will be better for living out who I really am. I can no longer (attempt) to compartmentalize my life. I’m bringing it all together, business woman, humanitarian and lover of life. There will be no way to tell when one part starts and another stops. It’s all me.
So on this Taurus Full Moon I’m shedding my segmented self. I’m writing down those things that no longer serve me and burning them so that tomorrow I may make my biggest wish.
(You have to come back tomorrow because the 11/11/11 part is amazing!)Hungry for More, A. Monika
p.s. If there are typos, spelling or grammar mistakes in this post don’t worry about. Those are the kinds of things I’ve worried about for FAR too long. It’s time to just get it out and who cares if it’s not perfect, it’s from the heart!