I have used many methods such as Astrology, Tarot, Runes, Reiki and Angel Board over the last three years to help me tune into where I’ve been, where I am and where I’m going. Last year around this time I felt an urge to look into Numerology.
I was approaching my 33rd birthday and sensed it was going to be a big year. If you know me at all, you know I love birthdays and I see them all as important, but 33 felt different. I did some research online and the number 3 seemed to keep popping up for me.
I never did find a person that I felt a particular draw to for a complete reading but I knew one would show up.
As it turned out this year was a big year. Derek and I moved to San Diego. We expanded our business beyond our wildest goals. In fact, when we first started the business we had thrown out some numbers. They seemed very big to us at the time, they were crazy numbers. And it was just in the last two months that we doubled our crazy numbers. I started this website. Finished my first book. Let go of many things that weighed me down, literally and figuratively. That meant letting my family go, remembering that I’m not responsible for them or their lives. They would work it out and I didn’t need to worry. It meant leaving friends and clients in Arizona. It meant selling our house and over half our possessions to fit into this downtown loft. It has felt like I gave birth to someone new.
This year has been the start of not just a new chapter, but a new book!
Recently a numerologist named Shey visited the Four Corners area, which happens to be where I’m originally from. I heard from a few different people that she was really good and had a way of combining Numerology, Chinese Astrology and Tarot. On Thursday I felt it was time to contact Shey and set an appointment. I knew I wanted to end this year right and have insight on what 2012 held for me.
In all the methods I’ve used, I always felt like I was remembering what I already knew. My numerology session was different.
Shey called me at 4:30 on Friday and she dove right into my reading. The first number she mentioned was 3, that didn’t surprise me. But what she said for the next five minutes or so, did surprise me. It had no idea who she was describing, but it wasn’t me. Outspoken, critical, even seen as mean by many. I was actually smiling and laughed a few times because I was thinking to myself, if only I could be this person! I almost didn’t say anything but that has been a change for me this year as well, speaking up. I told Shey that if she asked people what they thought of me they would say I’m the sweetest person, not the meanest. (In fact, those closest to me remind me to not allow people to walk all over me.) And if I’m ever critical, it’s usually only of myself.
Without skipping a beat she said, awww, this was brought on by your environment.
I immediately saw myself in church. Growing up in church can have many affects on people, the affect it had on me, nearly killed me inside. I’m a person that sets high enough standards for myself, I didn’t need a reminder three times a week that I wasn’t good enough. The thing I am thankful for is that over the last twelve years I’ve been able to throw out what didn’t serve me but remain connected to God, Source, the Universe, whatever you want to call it. That part is essential to me.
My session with Shey helped me see myself in a whole new light. It helped me see who I could be. There are two sides to every coin. When you learn your numbers you see how your personality, passions and tendencies can be directed in one of two ways. Some would call one side good and the other evil, or positive and negative. I believe both sides are necessary.
You see, it’s only when we claim all of who we are that we are whole.
I don’t just want my light side, I want my shadow side as well.
Thanks to Shey, I’m reclaiming my pieces, even those that would be seen as bad because otherwise I’ll only be half of who I could be.Hungry for More, A. Monika
p.s. If there are typos, spelling or grammar mistakes in this post don’t worry about. Those are the kinds of things I’ve worried about for FAR too long. It’s time to just get it out and who cares if it’s not perfect, it’s from the heart!