I don’t really see any point in creating a blog about my journey in life if I’m unwilling to be completely honest and real about it. There are plenty of places for us to find photoshopped faces, reality stars and politics and I’m pretty sure we’ve all had our fill.
Where can we find real people navigating through this thing we call life?
I’ve asked for more of the real, the raw and the unedited and each day I’m being asked to give it.
Derek and I have been like mad scientists in the lab for the last five years. We’ve been looking for the concoction that would give us the ability to pay the bills and do what we love. We’ve tried so many different angles thinking that when we find the formula we’d then be free to go do what what we are passion about.
We’ve had the flawed thinking that we must first find a way to make money.
It seemed like the logical thing to do.
It seemed like that was the correct order.
It seemed like the responsible thing to do.
After five years in the lab we can tell you it was not any of the above and I’ll tell you why. It’s much more difficult to “be successful” when doing something you don’t love. And when money is the aim, it is never enough. I can see your head is spinning so let me say it another way.
It’s damn hard to make money outside of your passion and when you do make it, you won’t start doing what you’re passionate about because it will always feel risky to switch your focus away from the money for fear that it will decrease while you’re away doing what you love.
I’m not speaking in theories, I’m speaking from my experience. I can tell you that when I focused on making money, I made it but that’s all I got out of the deal. The money didn’t bring anything else along with it. This blew my mind because when I didn’t have any money I was convinced that having money would solve all my problems.
So let’s bring this to the present moment. Derek and I are decided that we had to choose to do what we are passionate about. We were unwilling to put it off any longer. So we had the money to move overseas but we were still missing one critical piece to this puzzle, time. Our business takes up time, some of mine, but all of Derek’s.
So this is the dilemma, money but no time, time but no money.
We have been feeling this challenge before us…what’s it gonna be?
What are you going to choose?
Are you going to live what you believe?
Or are you going to give up on all that “do what you love stuff” and choose “security” and money?
I was so tired of having this in the air. I could feel it in the apartment. It was hanging between Derek and I. This morning the damn broke and we made a decision. We decided against logic. We decided against over thinking everything. We decided it was time to move things down to our hearts and guts.
We decide to do more stupid things.
We decided to only doing things that feel good but might sound stupid. We decided that we could trust and we could have faith and that we’ve been longing to fly by the seat of our pants. We decided that we’re so bored with carefully calculated living.
Our lives might seem radical, even reckless to some but it doesn’t matter, we are smiling and laughing.
We will go to Albania with even less of a safety net. And we have burned all plans but Plan A. The rubber is getting ready to hit the road and we’ve decided there’s no turning back. We will do what we love and trust that we will be taken care of.
So stay tuned. I’ll keep you updated on how things go. And if we don’t fall of the edge or go up in flames, maybe, just maybe, you’ll be interested in giving it a shot too.
Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere.
Hungry for More, Monique Alvarez p.s. If there are typos, spelling or grammar mistakes in this post don’t worry about. Those are the kinds of things I’ve worried about for FAR too long. It’s time to just get it out and who cares if it’s not perfect, it’s from the heart!