Have you ever been cruising along just wonderfully and then before you know it, you’ve fallen in a hole?
That most recently happened to me last Friday. Derek and I had just enjoyed ourselves in New Orleans and we were back in San Diego for a couple of hours (1 day actually, it just felt that way) before heading to L.A. for the weekend.
I went to bed completely content and woke up dazed and confused.
I’m not proud to say that the whole day I was miserable. I was worried about things that hadn’t happened yet and had little probability of ever happening. I literally couldn’t see straight. (I’m sure you’ve never done this before.;)
I was trying to precisely line out the events of the next 4-6 months. By the way, I don’t recommend taking on such a task unless you want to have a really bad day! But that was what I was determined to do. Planning it all out and coming up with solutions for every possible scenario. And to matters worse I was attempting to figure out how Derek and Charlie were going to handle these hypothetical situations. Talk about exhausting!
You see, I’m just like you. I have a lot on my plate right now.
I own a business.
I’m starting this new adventure here.
I’m writing a book (almost finished).
I’m designing a t-shirt line.
And I’m planning a long trip to Europe.
But it’s never what’s on our plate that causes us stress. Nope. Go ahead write down all the projects and ideas and stuff you’re tackling right now and you’ll see you wouldn’t be doing it if you didn’t want to. These things are on the list because they excite you, they challenge you and make you feel alive.
The source of our stress is in trying to live beyond TODAY.
Thankfully my family helps me put things back into perspective on days like this. In fact both my parents gave me these wise words from my brother.
“We do not know where we are going and we do not know how to get there, so we must listen every moment and take the next step into the dark holding mystery’s hand”. (Dylan Hoffman)
I took a deep breath and got back in the moment.
If you’re feeling anything less than joy right now, come back from the future.
Hungry for More, A. Monika
p.s. If there are typos, spelling or grammar mistakes in this post don’t worry about. Those are the kinds of things I’ve worried about for FAR too long. It’s time to just get it out and who cares if it’s not perfect, it’s from the heart!